It has taken me years to figure out who I truly was. As a person, as a woman, as the Goddess I knew was deep inside. I have been broken so many times, I only grew to know the new rebuilt version of myself that I would let seep through the cracks. I was pulled and pushed in so many directions that soon, I was lost in more ways than one. I felt like it all came crashing down on me and I kept getting deeper and deeper into piles of toxic bullshit that I lost sight on a few things. If you let me, I can save you some time and frustration.....maybe. It's up to you, really. I can't make you commit to change, to commit to breaking cycles, to commit to finally honoring and loving yourself FIRST! Yep, I said that. First, not second, not 3 days from now after your kids football practice. I mean like literally right now - love yourself DO something for yourself. I know... calm down, it freaked me out at first too BUT there is a method to my madness and no I don't feel guilty about it - well sometimes but I get over it real quick because I have to make myself priority or I can't be the Goddess everyone needs me to be.
Now, let's tackle two things at a time.....shall we?
ONE - I know I haven't written in a while and yes while that nags at me - the truth is.....building an empire is a lot of work. I am the literal blood, sweat, tears, heart, soul and hands that go into the Spanish Moon Brand and it's A LOTTTTTT. I handmake everything (have you seen my shop? I have close to 800 products in my inventory....that's a lottttt of ish) except the crystals and even those I hand pick from wholesalers that I have researched and vetted. It's important to me to know where my crystals and herbs/flowers are coming from, if they were ethically sourced and if it is sustainable. I pour so much love and powerful intention into all my Spanish Moon Products. It does, however, take a lot of my time. I am one women running multiple businesses and while it is a struggle; it is tremendously rewarding. ;)
(Big Thanks to my Spanish Moon Tribe)
TWO - That being said, I have to figure out what is important not only for my business but for me too. Case in point, I haven't written a Blog post in a few months. BUT my business has been growing in other areas and I can't work 24-7. As much as I like to think I could. It's about finding that balance that works for you and allowing it to actually work. I have to be able to unplug at some point of the day, I have to ground myself and recharge but most importantly I have to take care of myself. After the chaotic day and the kids are in bed, my laptop is off and my music is going - it's my time to unwind. I have to remind myself to slow down, run a hot bath, light a candle, put some of my prettiest crystals around the tub, pour one of my favorite bath salts in and zone out. I literally recharge myself. I take this time to get in tune with myself again, my intentions, my manifestations, my goals and ambitions. I like to the let the mix of aromatherapies, crystal energies, musical vibrations and frequencies heal and recharge my mind, body and soul.
Some other things that really helped me along the way were dedicating time each day for my own daily practices. Practices that I chose that worked and resonated with me and how my day works. It's not always realistic that I get up at 4:30am to have a yoga session and meditation, it might be more realistic for me to dedicate my time for that at 7:30am instead. And I know it's not always realistic to meditate twice a day but even a quick 10 minute meditation during your day, at whatever time works for you - does wonders for your mindset, focus and centering yourself. Or I like take an hour to go on a walk or run and follow that by just a quick entry in my journal. The point is, I center myself around my intention for the day and then move forward to handle whatever that day brings. Also, I know I've said this before but Shadow Work was essential for my journey and for me to step into my powers. It took time and commitment but I worked through it and I still continue to work through things from time to time. I've handed some clients one of my Shadow Workbooks and they look at me like I'm insane but the truth is....its work. Brutal, gut wrenching, incredibly hard.....work. It shakes you to your core and breaks down every thought you ever had. It shifts your perspective and perception of everything. It brings things forward that were buried deep on a subconscious level and awakens it into your conscious state. And that my friend, is where the unpacking begins....You will be unpacking emotions, past traumas, buried thoughts, triggers, childhood bullshit you never thought you were holding on to....it's all going to be unpacked and neatly laid out before you. So you can finally see it for what it is and let it go. It's mind blowing how embracing your dark side allows a shift to take place, a click, a pop, a final piece of the puzzle to be laid down and you are able to release everything that no longer serves you and just.....Go with it. It's beautiful. It's powerful. It's intoxicating....and that's just the start. Call upon your inner strength because you will need it. You are about to see your world in a whole new way.
I also found that knowledge was my most powerful asset. I used to think it was my shining hazel green eyes....but I was so wrong. I found once I started educating myself on ancient ways, traditions and medicine, once I sought out mentors and teachers that could show me a new way of harnessing the powers of all the magic the universe has to offer. Everything changed for me....I was able to start healing myself. I'm not saying you have to go on this crazy journey like I did and do everything I did. You don't have to meet with Shamans and Witchdoctor's. You don't have to go into a sweat lodge or even leave your house if your don't want to. But YOU do need to do something to make today better than your last, and you need to make this moment count for something. Take charge of your life, take charge of your mind, take charge of your journey. You have all the power you need already inside you, twisting and turning, it's literally coursing through your veins this very second. You my friend, are magic. The very essence of your power is already flickering, it is time to ignite that flame and unleash your true potential. Find a way that works for you, find a path that resonates with you and find the parts of you that have been hidden away. It can get dark, it can get lonely, it can even be heartbreaking BUT you will stop being numb to the parts of you that are itching to break through.
Stepping into you power is about taking back all the little bits of yourself you have been starving for so long and showing yourself some nurturing love....for once. Its about owning and claiming every part of yourself, your dark and light side. Its about forgiving yourself, your inner child and others. Its about being open and honest with yourself. Its about finding out what you are on this earth for, your true life's purpose. It's about making your life one that you actually want to live. Once you have tapped into your power and you understand that you are in control of so much more than you allow yourself to believe. That you have the power to manifest anything your heart desires. You have the power to love and be loved. You have the power to inspire and create change. You have the power to make your mark on this beautiful planet and ripple positive vibrations out into the universe. Magic, isn't always something you can see. It isn't always a illusion or pulling a bunny from a hat. True magic is a mind shift or thought or feeling. It is the energy fluttering all around you and inside you. Being able to see the beauty in the tiniest of things or not allowing others to trigger you. That is power, and it's yours. Are you ready to take the steps necessary to embrace your power?
I was once told " You never forget the person that came to you with a torch in the dark." and that is so true. But sometimes you have to be the one to find the torch (or YOUR light) to help others. We can't always be waiting around for someone to save us. And I hope you do that. Heal yourself, so you can bring the light for someone else. The world needs more of that. Sending you all the Spanish Moon Love and Light my Moon Tribe!
Candi Spanish Moon